Happy Monday!
Wow that weekend went by fast for us! There was so much to do with Father’s Day on Sunday and Jonathans birthday today that we didn’t stop. I helped the boys make homemade cards for both Father’s Day and his birthday which was so much fun but also a little stressful since, in true form, I waited until the last minute haha. He absolutely loved them though so it was 100% worth it!
Honestly, I think I wanted to stay busy this weekend so that I didn’t have a lot of downtime to think about my first Father’s Day without my Dad. First’s are really hard and no one quite prepares you for how many “first’s” there are after you lose a loved one. I have always had a complicated relationship with Father’s Day due to my biological father walking out of my life when I was 12. I didn’t understand how he could walk away from me then and as a parent, I understand his choice even less now. It took me a long time to come to peace with the fact that his choice had more to do with him than it ever had to do with me.
The man that took on the role of “Dad” for me, selflessly took on a teenage daughter with a GIANT chip on her shoulder. I was angry, hurt, and wanted nothing to do with any type of father figure. My Dad truly had the patience of Job. He daily pledged his commitment to me and loved me at a time when I felt the most unloveable. He restored my faith in what a father should be and he helped heal a heart that he didn’t break. I will be forever grateful for my Dad and I miss him everyday.
While a little sad, this Father’s Day was truly a celebration of my wonderful husband. Jonathan is the most selfless, kind, and loving husband and father. Our boys will never grow up with the fear of abandonment or feeling unloved. Jonathan shows up for them every single day all while carrying the weight of the world on his shoulders. I can truly say that he is the best of us and we see Gods love for us through him in every moment.
This post is way longer than I meant for it to be but hopefully it will bring comfort to at least one other person. Have a wonderful week, friends!
“He has made every thing beautiful in His time.” Ecclesiastes 3:11
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